2.17.19~Sweet Memories
I've kind of been in a weird place lately and haven't blogged much, so my apologies for that. :) I've had a lot of things on my mind, and some of which are questions that just can't be answered anymore. So I thought I'd just give sort of a life update and share some things.
Recently, our basement flooded due to an extremely full septic tank. As my mom and dad were cleaning it up and disinfecting everything, they had to throw some stuff away. Some sentimental things were lost and unfortunately that's just how it goes sometimes. We did salvage what we could though. Even after it was covered in poo-water. Thankfully, my mom was able to salvage some letters that my Grand had written me when we lived in North Carolina, dating back to 2008 and 2009. She was able to dry them out and laminate them, so I would have them to put in memory box and look back on someday. So I decided to sit down earlier this week, and attempt to read them. The key word in that sentence was attempt haha! I only got halfway through the second one before I had to stop because I couldn't see from crying. I felt like a big baby, but it brought back some sweet memories and times flies.
On a related, but also unrelated note, I had been thinking about my papaw a lot lately. That's not something that happens a lot, because he passed away of cancer back in 2009, so I was young. But for whatever reason, he had been on my mind a lot. Tuesday night my subconscious threw him into one of my dreams and I haven't stopped thinking about it since then. I woke up Wednesday morning, got ready for work, and told my mom about the dream on my way there. I just found it very odd, because I'm not one to dream about familiar people. Especially not people who have passed away. I told my mom that I think I felt like I wanted to know that I've made my papaw proud, and that he likes the guy that I'm dating right now. I have a lot of questions to ask him, and desperately wish I could sit down and just ask away. I want to know what he thinks about my post-high school plans, my music career, my boyfriend, my five-year plan, and so much more. I've never felt like I needed his approval, but the older I get, the more I wish he was here to help guide me just like the rest of my grandparents, and parents.
I started reading Zach Williams, "Fear Is A Liar," devotional plan on my Bible app and it has definitely been good! One of the things that really impacted me about it, is the way it goes through the different lies that fear tells us, mentioned in the song. One was the lie that you should ashamed. We've all done at least one thing, if not a list of many things, in life that we are ashamed of. Whether it be big or small, we've all done something that we are ashamed of or that someone made of feel ashamed about. I've always been semi-ashamed of my testimony and all the crud that I dealt with. It has never been my favorite thing to share with people as they get to know me. Thankfully, the Lord is teaching me how to come out of my shell with it. In the devotional, Zach Williams talks about how no matter what you have done, said, thought, or experienced, and no matter how ashamed of it you are, Christ came to take that shame. Christ WILL take that shame and He will renew you like no other.
love always,
Izzy💛💛
Recently, our basement flooded due to an extremely full septic tank. As my mom and dad were cleaning it up and disinfecting everything, they had to throw some stuff away. Some sentimental things were lost and unfortunately that's just how it goes sometimes. We did salvage what we could though. Even after it was covered in poo-water. Thankfully, my mom was able to salvage some letters that my Grand had written me when we lived in North Carolina, dating back to 2008 and 2009. She was able to dry them out and laminate them, so I would have them to put in memory box and look back on someday. So I decided to sit down earlier this week, and attempt to read them. The key word in that sentence was attempt haha! I only got halfway through the second one before I had to stop because I couldn't see from crying. I felt like a big baby, but it brought back some sweet memories and times flies.
On a related, but also unrelated note, I had been thinking about my papaw a lot lately. That's not something that happens a lot, because he passed away of cancer back in 2009, so I was young. But for whatever reason, he had been on my mind a lot. Tuesday night my subconscious threw him into one of my dreams and I haven't stopped thinking about it since then. I woke up Wednesday morning, got ready for work, and told my mom about the dream on my way there. I just found it very odd, because I'm not one to dream about familiar people. Especially not people who have passed away. I told my mom that I think I felt like I wanted to know that I've made my papaw proud, and that he likes the guy that I'm dating right now. I have a lot of questions to ask him, and desperately wish I could sit down and just ask away. I want to know what he thinks about my post-high school plans, my music career, my boyfriend, my five-year plan, and so much more. I've never felt like I needed his approval, but the older I get, the more I wish he was here to help guide me just like the rest of my grandparents, and parents.
I started reading Zach Williams, "Fear Is A Liar," devotional plan on my Bible app and it has definitely been good! One of the things that really impacted me about it, is the way it goes through the different lies that fear tells us, mentioned in the song. One was the lie that you should ashamed. We've all done at least one thing, if not a list of many things, in life that we are ashamed of. Whether it be big or small, we've all done something that we are ashamed of or that someone made of feel ashamed about. I've always been semi-ashamed of my testimony and all the crud that I dealt with. It has never been my favorite thing to share with people as they get to know me. Thankfully, the Lord is teaching me how to come out of my shell with it. In the devotional, Zach Williams talks about how no matter what you have done, said, thought, or experienced, and no matter how ashamed of it you are, Christ came to take that shame. Christ WILL take that shame and He will renew you like no other.
love always,
Izzy💛💛
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