My Journey: Here to There And Everything In Between

I have struggled with the fear of rejection for a long time, as have most teenage girls, but sometimes it hits you in the face hard. I often don't realize that I am scared of being rejected or judged, until it stops me from doing something. Today was one of those days that it smacked me. I've been pretty overwhelmed with some stuff going on in my life lately, and often times I tend to just push all the emotions down inside of me and bottle it up, because it seems like the "big girl" thing to do. Yet, never do I consider that it all has to be released at some point. The bottle becomes full eventually no matter how far and how hard you push it down. In my house, we all hate taking out the trash haha! The dumpster is literally one hundred feet away, but currently it is cold out and no one wants the job of taking it out, so we tend to push it as far down in the can as we can and fit as much in there as possible before someone has to deal with the burden of taking it out...

When I created this blog, I called my journey, because that's exactly what I wanted it to be. I wanted a place where I could write and share my heart, but also document the journey that I am on in life. There's ups and downs to life and I wanted to share those and hopefully help someone else. So this is a tough part of my life right now, but regardless, it's all part of the journey. Lately in the Henderson house, things have been a bit overwhelming. From back at Halloween until right about now, things are consistently busy and fun around our house, due to the holidays. But since Christmas, things have been busy, but not necessarily for the best reasons. My family lost my great uncle the day after Christmas and just recently got back from spending some time in California with our family. My mom hasn't been feeling her best again, due to some health issues that have been present for a while, and found out she will be facing another surgery before long. As if that wasn...

I often catch myself talking about things that are getting to me or bothering me, but often times, I do not take enough time to stop and be thankful. I'll stop for a minute or so and say, "I'm extremely thankful for you," but I often fail to stop and really look at the things I am grateful for. So right now, I just wanna stop and be grateful and be thankful for things that God has blessed me with lately. First, if you have ever prayed for me, during good times or bad, thank you to the ends of the earth and back! I have just recently discovered the power of prayer. I grew up knowing that praying was something I was "supposed" to do, so I did it. BUT, recently, God has really showed me how He can work through people praying for me, and people praying for others. Many of you know, my parents had to fly out to California last week, and I was so worried about all the anxiety that I was going to be experiencing, but thanks to the power of prayers from others an...

So, I saw this really cute blog/journal post on Pinterest earlier and decided it would make a super fun post for today! It's simply just some questions about the new year, myself, and what the year at a glance looks like. I did leave out some of the questions because I thought they were boring or I didn't feel like they were something important. I hope you enjoy!! January 2019 1. What was your first meal of the year?  My first meal of 2019 was a frozen Udi's gluten free lasagna. I didn't eat breakfast that day, was starving, and wasn't willing to wait until dinner to have Hoppin' John. At least I started my 2019 with one of my favorite meals! :) 2. Choose a word for this year and explain why. I think my word for the year is going to be two words. I think they will be "freedom" and "conquer." I chose freedom, because I want to be free in Christ this year, and experience all that it has to offer. Being free from the chains of anx...

HELLO BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE! When I started this blog, I promised to be real and raw, no matter what that meant. That hasn't changed at all. I'm definitely still going to be real and raw, but real and raw doesn't always mean sad or hurting. So today, I am going to make a list of things that make me happy, things that make smile. I have absolutely no idea how many things will be a part of this list, but I am going to list as many as I can think of. I wanted a really happy post that didn't involve a story of stress or whatever. I have been trying to be very positive and happy and encouraging to others and myself this week. I often find that when I try to keep myself focused on the happy and good things in life, the more calm and happy I am. So without further talk, here is a list of things that make me smile: 1. puppies 2. babies 3. getting my nails done 4. going to church with my boyfriend/close friends 5. having impromptu worship experiences 6. new leggings 7. ...

So I actually posted yesterday, and honestly didn't plan to post again today, but the Lord laid something on my heart and I was gonna share it. This blog is my journey and so this post is definitely a big part of that. I'm going to be very real in this post. Ya'll deserve nothing less. So my parents we're invited to go to Passion 2019 with our college class at church. They all went this past weekend and really enjoyed it. I typically wouldn't care too much about went on, since I had already watched some of it and heard about it. BUT, my dad had an idea for our corporate worship tonight, to have the young adults who went, share what stuck out to them. Well, I honestly have a lot going on right now with my family, so I have been EXTREMELY stressed and anxious, and honestly couldn't have cared less about being there tonight. Since I had that attitude, Jesus grabbed hold of that and flipped it around and used tonight's service to really work in my heart. Thr...

"There's a song by Jamie Grace that I absolutely LOVE right now. It's called  Daughter Of The King  . But I can't help but sing the chorus on days that just get me down, and it goes like this... "The Maker of skies. The Maker of seas. The Maker of every beautiful thing, He made you. He made you, too. The mountain high. The river wide. He tells the sun when to set and rise And He made you, He made you, too. You're a daughter of the King. So tell me, 'What does that make you?'" I can't help but just find such joy and peace in these words. I certainly think that I discovered this song at the perfect time in my life. I am honestly so tired of hearing about "feminism" and "girl boss" junk in this world. I have no problem with women wanting the same pay and stuff as men, but it is all a little excessive. I look in the Bible at Proverbs 31 and it talks about being a humble women. being kind. being wise. being gent...